LAST NIGHT

Dear God, last night i was dreamed about him.

It's look so REAL. My dream's not black and white, but so colourfull. So strange.

And he look so REAL in my dream. I could touch and hold his hands. I can touch his face, look into his brown eyes, and touche his softy hair. There's no spaces between us. There's only fingers to fingers, our skins and i could hear him breathe. Slowly but so lovely.

The dream was so beautifully. Sam's looks beautifully indeed.

Maybe, this is your other way, God. Because YOU know, i'm so missing him.

Thank you for complete-ing my Christmas with him. Even it was just....

DREAM

This could be the end of everything

I walked across an empty land
I knew the pathway like the back of my hand
I felt the earth beneath my feet
Sat by the river and it made me complete

Oh simple thing where have you gone
I'm getting old and I need something to rely on
So tell me when you're gonna let me in
I'm getting tired and I need somewhere to begin

I came across a fallen tree
I felt the branches of it looking at me
Is this the place we used to love?
Is this the place that I've been dreaming of?

Oh simple thing where have you gone
I'm getting old and I need something to rely on
So tell me when you're gonna let me in
I'm getting tired and I need somewhere to begin

So if you have a minute why don't we go
Talk about it somewhere only we know?
This could be the end of everything
So why don't we go
Somewhere only we know?

Oh simple thing where have you gone
I'm getting old and I need something to rely on
So tell me when you're gonna let me in
I'm getting tired and I need somewhere to begin

So if you have a minute why don't we go
Talk about it somewhere only we know?
This could be the end of everything
So why don't we go
Somewhere only we know?

This could be the end of everything
So why don't we go
Somewhere only we know?

.Keane.

This song is truly reminds me of you.


Oh, God. I really really miss him.

(some) Fashion and Photo's works

For this time, i'll added some of my fashion and photo's works. Enjoy! :)



Fafi is super cute. So i made this looklet (Looklet is a website to make some LOOK's)



Or this :



This is another look from my looklet :



MY CHILDHOOD"

Inspired from when i'm at age 7years old. The sneakers, the dress and the sweater. :D




"One thing is missed in this fotog is Y O U.."



"My First Baby : Doggie"



"My Second Baby : Pinot"



"Heaven is overrated"



"Most peoples do hate this : WAITING"



"LOS TRIOS BANDIDOS"



"GO GO! NINE NINE!"



"The Harmony Maker"



"The-Beautiful-Combo's"



"The I-MISS-YOU.."

What do ya think ??? :p

T.A.K.U.T

Aku membiarkan jari jemariku menuntunku untuk menulis. Tanpa tahu akhirnya apa yang akan aku tuliskan disini.


I do really wish, you will realize how many nights i've been cried over when i thinking about you.

How much i wrote in every chance i've got, to wrote about you. Can you see? Or will you see?

Sometimes i'm so damn tired without you. It's too monotone. I'd must admit that i need you so much closer. You are wanted and needed. HERE.

And if someday you asked, why i always wrote about you?

Karena ini perihal "takut".

Perihal "takut" apabila pada akhirnya aku akan melupakan "kamu". Sehingga kamu hanya akan menjadi secuil kenangan di sudut pikir. Yang pada akhirnya akan ku lupakan.

23.26

Yang tersayang, setengah jiwaku.

Rasanya setiap malam berlalu cepat sekali yah? Sekarang udah bulan ke - 12 lagi. Udah mau Natal lagi. Kalo kamu inget, ini natal kedua kita. Well, times flies so fast. Tapi aku inget Natalan taun lalu, kamu gak ada kabar sama sekali. Dan kamu baru kasitau di awal taun 2009, kalo ternyata kamu kecelakaan dan harus masuk rumah sakit. Dengan alasan kamu gak kasitau aku, kamu gak pengen khawatir.
You are so cliche, LOVE. But that was a super sweet thing you'd for me.

But like i said before, times flies super fast.

Tuhan pasti melihat, betapa susahnya setiap malam aku nyoba buat ngapus bayangan kamu. Tuhan pasti mendengar suaraku yang super keras kalo lagi ngobrol sama dia, dan Tuhan pasti mengerti kalo di akhir doa-ku, pasti akan berakhir dengan aku nangis.

Seandainya, melupakan kamu kaya lirik lagu Keane, We're strangers in an empty space. I don't understand your heart. It's easier to be apart . But God, me and (maybe) you know, it wasn't easy thing to do. It's like an another hard days night for me.

For sure, i've been so good and i've been so worse. It's alright. Maybe all this tears, sadness, an often damp eyes or even the smile you was given to me is a reminder that you were real.




"Aku rindu sekali denganmu, sayangku. Mungkin lagi - lagi aku harus berteman baik sama waktu. Untuk menemukan seseorang lagi seperti kamu.

Yang bisa membuatku seperti ini lagi. Membuat aku jatuh cinta setengah mati sama kamu...."


"The pain is the only reminder that he was real" - BELLA SWAN "New Moon"

a lack of #iwish

#iwish i have a great christmas this year

#iwish i got some holiday time to go anywhere i want

#iwish my superfinal last grade in college, could be done in next year. February or March. SUPER AMIN!!!

#iwish i'd could transformed into a unicorn and feeling so mystical

and the last

#iwish i could have you here, together. i'm so focken missing you! :/

You burst up the air i breathe

I guess my mind is always behind the doors on the places you go in.

I feel so much painful when i'd just woke up in the morning and i could crying over my pillow.

I'm falling to hard with you. I'm buried deep you inside me. Feel you in my blood. You feed up my oxygen when i breathe the air.

YES. I'm buried you too deep. TOO DEEP. It makes me wanna run into hills. And i screamed out. To bear up all this sadness.



I WANT TO FEEL YOUR LIGHT AGAIN.

SHOOT ME THROUGH MY VEINS WITH YOUR SHINES, Mr.SUN.

PLEASE!