This is about you

How are you my nowhere man? I'm kinda miss you. Err..actually i miss you so damn awfully.

I guess i've been surrounded by tears, damp eyes, and crappy moods lately. I will not blame on you and you don't have to apologize. Because i'd made a decision to let this happens to myself.

Huwh. This eyes never tired to shed some tears while it reminisce back our memories.
Especially when the night was come earlier. I feel alone. And for sure i will ended up with crying in the dark room.

I fell in too hard with you. But unfortunately, you have your own mind and decision, and i can't stand for it. So i prefer to let myself go without any noise, without letting you know i was gone.

It's hard. So fuckin hard for me. To being around without you besides me. Without someone i can't hold on to. I'm always asking, "What are you doing..?". And you will answers it, "I've got a lot to do while i'm thinking of you."

And you keep continuing types, "I'd really wants to be with you. Together and lean on to each other. I'm so damn wants you. Do you know, in the night like this i keep dreaming about you?"

Every words you said to me was beautiful. But you told again, WAIT FOR ME. I'm so sorry, i can't. I can't stand with how you think about the world. This world not only about you, baby. There's me and others.

Then suddenly, i was create our silence. We both comes out silently and slowly let go the tied heart.

But until now, you still had my heart. I keeping you in every words i wrote, just like this. I always wrote you a letter that might i never been send. Just like this, again.